Thursday, September 23, 2010
Ideally
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
KHS HC '10 < 3
I'm walking through the halls today right after homeroom, in which we voted for the top 20 for homecoming court. I'm on my way to French, when I get stopped repeatedly in the halls to be told that I've been voted for. Whatthefuck. It was nice and all, but still, I highly doubt I'm going to make homecoming court.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Hello Old Friend
I'm sitting here in my photoshop class, listening to the Cloud Nothings and Weed Diamond on last.fm. Not doing anything to improve my photoshop skills, whatsoever. We've got a substitute teacher in class today, and that generally contributes to the overall feeling of laziness in a classroom, which is exactly what it's doing here.
Small Black remix just came on and that makes me happy.
Bell's rung.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Religious Views
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Today I Bought a Dress and Wrote a Poem
Today I bought a new dress. I bought a new dress today. A new dress I bought today.
I sat.
Summer, Please Last Forever
Which is what I'll be suffering from come August.
This year, I went through big changed when it came to my friends. I lost some a group of people who I'd been friends with for many years. It was hard. Change always is, but I got through it with the help of some of my other friends.
I'd also been gradually becoming closer to some girls in my AP Psychology class. Both of whom were seniors. One actually ended up moving to Montana, which was depressing, but the other is right here and still with me. And along with her I have made 5 new senior friends, friends who I've grown extremely close to. I can hang out with each one of them one on one with the conversation flowing and flowing, no lulls. And when there are, they're comfortable, as if we're taking a moment to enjoy each other's company.
They're a virtuous group of people. Not virtuous in a conservative sort of way, but more in the way that they've got a good set of morals. I have never engaged in a gossip session with any of them. None of them have ever said anything bad about the other. It's comforting, to know that your doting, loving friends will always be your doting, loving friends regardless of whether or not you're around. They're also the most relaxed group of girls I have ever hung out with. They're almost like guys when it comes to the "drama" factor. If things happen, such as going to a best friend's hosue for a birthday bonfire, only to have your best friend leave the bonfire for another person's house and everyone go their separate ways. "We all just rolled our eyes and got over it."
I'm also going to miss all the casual hang outs we've had. Where we'll just go to somebody's house and just sit and talk and talk. When we'll rent really stupid, cheesy chick flicks and laugh at them the whole time and make predictions on what's about to happen next. When we'll go to wal mart and buy tons of delicious snacks.
I'll also really miss all the parties we've had, dinner parties, parties where I have no idea who anybody there is, but I get to meet new people, so it's all good kinda parties. All the times we've put on our nice things, and gone to nice restaurants. All the times where we've gone to my friend's boyfriend's friends' house, who were former Kennedy graduates on a late Saturday night and played cards and laughed and just had an all around good time.
I'll miss my chaffeur friend too. One of my senior friends gives me rides to school every single morning, and occasionally in the afternoons as well. I'll miss that daily debriefing we had. We got so close in that small Honda Civic of hers. It was basically the batmobile. Where most cars have "D" for drive on their gear shift, hers had a batsymbol. And the little "H" on the back of her car (the Honda symbol) was flaming.
I'll miss dissing on eachother's taste in music. I'll miss her trying to find new bands for me to listen to, and I'll miss trying to persuade her to give my music a chance, a feat she'd never be able to accomplish.
There are a lot of things I'm going to miss about my friends. Their little quirks that I won't ever be able to find in any other person. Their unique traits that make them who they are and that make me love them. I love them and I'm going to miss them.
Oh, Jeez. I'm tearing up now, so this is going to stop now.
These Are a Few of My Favorite Things
Shopping:
Can I just explain how good it makes me feel when I'm out looking for clothes, and I try on something that accentuates my best features and hides my blemishes. Something that fits my style perfectly without being too conservative or too revealing. Something that makes me feel good about myself. Reading: I read a whole lot. I used to much more than I do now, though, which is really a shame. I remember summers where I'd volunteer at the library. I'd volunteer once or twice a week, and each time I'd come home with a purse full of books, 6, 7, 8 sometimes up to 10 chapter books from each section of the library. Biography, adult fiction, science fiction, nonfiction, young adults. Every section. I'd then return them all the next week I'd come to do my service, and so the process would repeat. I'm also quite a speedy reader, it's one of the very few talents that I seem to posses. I can read a full length, adult chapter book in a day, easily. The 7th book of Harry Potter, against my own wishes, I finished in a matter of hours. Give me a book and let me devour it and I'll give it back deliciously finished up in a time shorter than you'd expect.
Friends:
I can't even begin to describe how much I love my friends. This year, I'd lost a group of people that I'd been friends with for years, and that was hard for me to deal with. Luckily I had the support of my old friends to comfort and support me all the way through. Then I made a whole other group of friends. While they may not be going to Kennedy next year, it's reassuring to know that they'll only be a half hour drive away. And there's really nothing more I love than sitting with my very best friends and doing the silly things any group of girls would do. I love the spontaneity of it all, the last minute phone call telling me to drop whatever I'm doing, get myself lookin' good and ready for a good, fun, long night out. And I love the fact that whenever I'm down I can call my best friend up and rant and rave and let it all spill out of me, with her nodding empathetically on the other end of the line.
Family:
As much as I complain about my parents, as any teenager does, I cannot help but absolutely adore them. Their overprotectiveness, from an outsider's point of view, may seem charming and cute, but when you're the direct recipient of such worried paranoia, it can get old quickly. I admire my father and his intelligence, and my mother and her tolerance and for taking on the traditional, home cooking, home making, role of a mom. I know that I can always, always count on my sister. She's sweet, naive, and has such a soft personality. She's the middle child, so she's always pretty chill and relaxed. My little brother; however, is one of the most hyper child that you may ever meet. His temper tantrums, and impatience can get pretty annoying, but he's absolutely adorable and sometimes just says the darndest things.
I love my extended family, as well. I love my grandmother, my aunt, my cousins, and all my uncles. It's like that game of trust, you know? The one where you have to close your eyes and let yourself fall, hoping that somebody'll be there to catch you. When I picture my family, I picture them, arms outstretched, ready to catch whatever stumble I may take. All 10 of my uncles, my aunt, my cousins, my grandparents, my siblings, and my parents. There's such a strong sense of family.